hateful hateful ribbons

tied around my wrists

the shame convinces me that you no longer matter

deities whine

you are a sinner

you fucking sinners

copulating, fornicating, procreating

delusional hippies

break free from satan

really?

oh, not even as a joke can i say that

evil is enough to believe in

i don't need mythology around the concept

truancy 

you shirker

shirky shirk shorkkkkk

you don't do what you are supposed to do

you are supposed to be somewhere

but you are somewhere else

hortense

my high school boyfriend's mother's name was hortense

maybe it was in spanish, "hortensia"

how horrendous a name!

wow

years of fears and tears

tare

orangina

monkey

matters 

mind

don't mind your business music book applications gears scissors calculator folders compass pictures fox word basket smiling faces rocket ship eagle book calendar pad list map rainbow bubble camera

forever

steech fever fever feever don't caitch neenee ronner pay seemah daint dant dontt dontt dontt

dondondondondondondondondondondon

pwackpwak dough dough dough rock

rachrachrackrach

sheetraa sheep schleecka skleeka skleecka shicka shiek sheik shriek shriek said the sheik far said the czar

czar czar baby

know a czar?

know a czar? know one ? know one? who knows a czar?

kill me 

crazy crazy

free free free free free free free

junk mind

random baseless hatred cat wallet bill paper

paid the bill paid the bill paid the bil

bills

die wanna die

cats cat

please help me help me

put the card away

plans

plans for plastic money

open the book

sing a song

read it 

finish reading it

tails would 

waht what would i do with a tail

who would be scared if i had a tail?

can i wear a collar?

am i a cat?

no i am not a cat. not yet anyway

yesterday wary portree eep eek he used to say eep sometimes i think

am i wrong? jed fuck i was crazy about you

i wanted to such your fuch

your smell

your clothes had a smell...

the smell of my love for you

you

you never stayed

you were always leaving

you never did what i wanted you to do

i don't want to think about you 

it's fun to think about you sometimes

i used to love kissing you, didn't i?

yes! at the terrence something art exhibit...all that salt...it was weird. we just made out made the fuck out

it's not woerth thinking about 

we are old now

15 years have passed