Rebelling against all authority starts early. Who does one have to rebel against but an authority figure? Outside of interaction with authority figures one is mostly in control, at least so far as more tangible, rational forces are concerned.
I had no voice or choice in my childhood. My father was an authoritarian figure in our home. He was imposing and dominating with us. No fly-away hairs escaped his obsessive eagle eyes and compulsive swatting hands ready to pat things smooth. He was too strong for me. I could not rebel against him unless I was willing to suffer more than I was already suffering.
...but...I am still suffering. I am still stifled and suffocating. His hand is still on the back of my neck, his fingers still figuratively pressed into my temples as he tries successfully to control my thoughts and crush my will.
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